To my family...

I want to tell you that I am feeling what you are feeling. That I am there even though I am not there. I know that I have begun my own little family, but I feel more a part of you than ever before. I see more clearly the ties that bind us. I feel more poignantly every hurt and rejoice more fully with every new obstacle overcome.

Today I am thinking of you. I am wishing I could have been with you during all the scary and difficult things you have had to deal with these past two years. And that I could be there now to see you moving forward. I am praying you will remember how much I love you. I am hoping you are receiving the peace that you need from the one person who has felt your pain before, has cried with you and for you, and has lived after death so that you know you can make it through.

Some things you should know:
Mom- I still ache to consult you about every decision.
Dad- I still need you, when things look ominous, to step in and make everything alright.
Megan- I still need you to be my best friend every single day.
McKay- I still need you to be the peace maker you were born to be--- maybe now more than I ever have before.


I am you, and you are me.We are small in numbers, but we are strong.

Aren't we?

Yes, I very much think we are.

Most of all--- I love you.